What is meant by ‘surrender’? Does it imply that when somebody threatens to break your jaw you say, ‘No, no, I surrender’? Is that how we surrender to God? In that there is desire, fear and hope. Someone wants to hit you; you are afraid. By doing this surrender, you hope to be saved – which means the ego is still very much alive and strong, and it thinks that God is something outside of the me. The outside God is a creation of your own mind. Surrender also suggests that there is an ‘I’, and that ‘I’ has to be taken, nicely gift-wrapped and offered at the feet of God.
But surrender is not that. ‘I’ does not surrender something else. The ‘I’ itself must surrender. How does ‘I’ surrender? What exactly does it mean? Only when there is direct understanding of the truth that God alone is, is there surrender. As a matter of fact, that is what the simple word ‘yoga’ means. If you can mentally visualise a blackboard and you draw a line with a piece of chalk, that white line seems to have created a division, above here – below there. You take a piece of cloth and wipe it. As you wipe it, you see that that which was above and that which was below are coming together. That is yoga. It was never broken, but on account of a certain colouring it appeared to have been broken. When this understanding arises, what is ‘is’, and cannot be broken at all. That which appeared to have been broken, appears to come together. Where there was apparent division, that surrender restores oneness. This is the process of surrender.